Becca Hornick--Apocalypse Now

I found the movie to be raw and intense. It was rough to watch at times because to me it was kind of scary. But the things that were scary to me were not exactly the things one would think. I think the part that scared me the most..well freaked me out the most...was when they left the boat to go looking for mangos. It wasn't because of the tiger because i knew that was coming, but because I don't ever recall seeing a vivid picture of the vietnam jungle and that is what freaked me out. I just started thinking about all the men who got lost in those jungles or who spent a lot of time in them and I feel for them. I truly began to understand the horrors of that place and see where minds could easily have been lost in those jungles (especially if the guys were doing acid). Speaking of acid, the sufer character during his acid trip made me feel weird also. In any movie where they portray an acid trip I always get this weird feeling because as the viewer I am supposed to, but this guy was seeing things that could mess you up sober. I feel like that could have been the way it was for the real soilders there too, seeing those kinds of things ( i know that movie wasn't supposed to be an actual representation, but I'm sure some of the things weren't so far off) could really alter your psyche with out drugs, and adding drugs, whoa I'd be gone. I feel like the only thing you could do is check out mentally. My cousin is in the war right now and sent the family a video he made and there were bombs and guns going off in the back ground pretty much the whole time, and there were pictures of the wounded, and the dead, and seeing those things on a daily basis could really cause someone a lot of change in their life. I mean myself seeing two people in a casket in the past month has been hard on my mental wellbeing I couldn't imagine adding a jungle and people being killed infront of me. The movie made me really ponder what life is really about. And how thankful I am that we have people serving our country and people like me who couldn't handle it don't have to.